I love playing my new guitar! The joy of learning how to play new songs, back onto musical instrument. This feeling cannot be readily describe though. Having not touching much of it since i enlisted into national service, it felt like picking up a new skill once again. At last i manage to grasp the plucking part for guang huai fang shi, which have eludes me since who knows when and manage to learn the first part of more than words. Not bad already i suppose. Haha. Slowly but surely i am learning and building my platform as a guitarist once again. Still remembering how much playing a guitar meant to me long long time ago.

I came across this article not too long ago which talks about friends and how people come and go just like water flowing through a river. In a whole stretch of river there is always a starting point. A spot where water starts the flow. The water will travel through steep slopes, gentle slopes, rocky beds, rapids, waterfall. There are curves, meanderings, obstacles along its path. It also talks about how much organism thrives in the river. Its the same for friends, there is always the first "hello" which started the flow, times when the friendship blossom which denotes the steep slope. Times when it reaches the gentle slope, the ability to understand and to accept sets in thus the slower pace and smooth surface. Then comes along the rocky bed, rapids and waterfall which tell us about the temper thrown, quarrels, fights, misunderstanding between friends and usually after some time it will calm down into a river once again. The twist and turns in a river talks about the path they took whether they walk the same path or they break off forever. And there are times where it resulted in a lake which stagnant and stops totally. The once moving flow became still water and moves no further except higher and lower in level. Which might be something more than friendship or something totally off.

Sometimes i wonder if i am indeed too nice a person. Not to self praise but i have always been at the losing end. Not that i really mind actually but there are times i felt been taken advantage of and been taken for granted. Even when i felt so i tried not to show and tell as i was afraid of losing friends by that. I know myself best and i have always offer a helping hand whenever possible, lend a shoulder, give up some of my time to listen and understand, forsake personal benefit for others. So many a times these happens unknowingly to the other party, and being taken advantage of and granted of is not a nice feeling to garner. How do you ensure your friends do not do this to you? If you got a good answer please tell me cause i am at a lost already.

I wonder when will there be a time i can just take off all those responsibilities and have some fun. The sensible and responsible side of me doesn't approve of me putting down the mantle and relax. Shoulder do hurt quite a bit with no where to ease the load onto. I seriously do not mind helping and heaving more stuff upon my about to explode backpack but i do appreciates some form of courtesy and brains on the counterpart. Ask and it shall be given unto you. BUT receive with a brain in handy and a ear to listen. I do know that my mouth isn't that covered up most of the times, meaning i can be very straightforward in my answer to your question. IF you do not have the necessary stomach to hold or contain my answer, don't ask then. I do pride myself in the ability to listen and make good analytical answers most of the time but restricted to my knowledge in the aspects. Oh well, thus i reap what i sow now.